Return of the Revenge of the Son of Saying Hi to Josiah!

[auragongal]

Thanks for the advice guys, I'm feeling better now. Also Luxi, um.... I hate to say it, but I'm pretty damn close to where you are already... maybe farther since I have a voice in my head that tells me not to do anything stupid like kill myself.

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A-anyway.... congrats on the puppy Luxi!

[Saber Knight]

Hey.

Look, lots of us go through rough times. For a few months, I was nearly suicidal, but my grades (you know you're a nerd when the primary reason in your head for not comitting suicide is that you've worked so hard on your grades and you wouldn't want it all to be a waste) kept me going. Now, that's no longer my thought pattern, or anything. Me and depression... we kind of have a sine curve relationship. I'd go a few months feeling freaking awesome, then a few months of suck, then rinse and repeat, and I thought I'd go back to depression a few months ago, but I never did. I mean, I still have sucky days and stuff, but I haven't had weeks straight of throwing my stuff across the room and crying myself to sleep every night.

I'm not sure where I was going with that? Maybe it was a whole "it gets better" sort of thing? Anywho, I have a friend who's attempted suicide, and was on the verge of being suicidal again earlier this year... now he's doing fantastic. It's really wonderful. He had a terrible depression for the past two years (part of it was clinical; he was on meds for a while) and he's been doing great for the past two months or so. He's happy again, and it's awesome to see.

Again, I think I was going with the whole "it gets better" thing. 'Cos it does! I had a diary of sorts I kept when I got really depressed. Going back and reading it now... well, each time I do, it gives me a bit of a shock to see how bad I really got :/

It gets better!

[Siranae]

Ah, that sucks that Steam rejected you, Josiah. The Xbox bug thing too. But I'm sure you'll get it accepted to a bunch of those other sites.

Y'know, from my experience it seems like everyone goes through some form of depression at least once in their life. I agree with a lot of what Saber said, it does get better.

Luxi, play with that puppy. A lot. Puppies are used for therapy. Also puppies need to be played with.
Also Lux, sounds like you've got a bad case of the blues there. I know you've probably heard it all before, but don't think about it. Try not to think about it at all. Also, you are not worthless. You're not. You've probably got a family full of people that love you. And now you've got a dog that loves you. And that dog looks adorable. So you say you've slipped down a dark canyon. It's okay. You'd be surprised how many people this happens to. But listen, it gets better. You're going to be okay. There's a lot out there in the world, and you'll find a lot to be happy about. And there's no reason to hate yourself. Please don't argue that fact.

Aura, same to you. I don't know if I can help much concerning the voice, but it's nice to know you're feeling better, even if it's just a little.

It's also good to hear you made it out of such a rough patch Saber. You're a hard-working person, you know that?

Also, I thought some of you guys might like this thing. It's not good to think about sad thought all the time, but it's okay to take the time to let it out when needed.

You all have value. And remember this, the world, and a certain little forum, would be sadder without you.

[Kaida]

Greetings Mina and *hugs* for Aura.

There's really not much I can add onto what everyone else has said. I agree with it all. Everyone has those bad days, I remember a few months there during the first year of my apprenticeship when I dreaded going to work and cried myself to sleep whenever I had a bad day. And quite a few of those nights I wished that I wouldn't wake up.
Let's just say I'm now doing a lot better. Keeping a diary is a good Idea, it's good to get everything out of your system, particularly since theres not always someone for you to talk to. It helps clear your head and sorts out your thoughts, in a way, kinda odd that. I've been meaning to start one for while, I find I have trouble remembering non-eventful things. From my experience we humans tend to remember the bad things over the good, making it seem like were have a lot more bad days then what we really do. (It will also help with your writing, you know practice and all). As everyones said, there will be people better then you, and you'll be better then others. The only way you'll improve is not just by believing in yourself but working hard. "Just remember that star will only get you part of the way, you've got to be willing to put in some hard work yourself" Cookies to those who guess what thats from. (for help, their talking about wishing on a star for their dreams).

From what I've seen of your art it its really good and has plenty of potential. (This is where all that practice comes into it). Keep practicing, learn what your strong and weak points are and work on them. It's the same with writing.
One of the easiest ways to improve your writing and characters is by reading. Lots and lots of reading. Different genres, different styles, books meant for different age groups. And if you want, get a (I think their called a how to or something similar) that helps you learn how to put a plot together, create character and all that.

Just remember, we're all here for you. *hugs* I definatly agree with Sira that the world and a little forum or friends would be sadder without you.

One another note, I got accepted into Uni! Yay ^_^. Happiness is dampened by the fact that I'm worried about Sorbet (my budgie) Robby was clipping her wing when a bird flew past the window and scared her, she moved and he clipped to far in. There was so much blood. We took her to his sisters and she cleaned it a bit, but it still hadn't stopped bleeding to we took her to the vet. He castrated the wound so it stopped bleeding (this all happened about 27 hours ago now). She's doing okay at the mo, but theres a possibility that we may loose her due to shock. Gotta keep her warm, quite and mostly covered in the cage. She should be fine. But theres still that worry there.

[Josiah]

Hi! Congrats on the acceptence, Kaida! I hope your bird recovers.

I can't really add much of anything to what everyone else had said about depression and all that other than try to stay healthy as well. In many cases, mental problems can be partly or even fully caused by other health issues (allergies, over exposure to mold or chemicles, and the like). My dad has treated a lot of people like that in the past. So try to keep yourself healthy and active as much as possible.

Personally, I've never been seriously depressed. I've gotten really sad at times, but never anywhere near the suicidal level and I tend to bounce back within a day or two. I'm not always entirely happy with my life and I can get really stressed out at times, but there are always lots of good things to keep in mind and if there's something about my life that I don't like, I just need to work on changing it. Part of keeping a positive outlook in purely mental but I credit a lot of that attitude towards a combination of family, friends, religion, and health.

[PoisonWing14]

Moi,

Well, most of the people above me have said quite a lot already, and have taken some things right out of my keyboard, so I'll just try to put my two cents in. I've definitally had some bad days where nothing seems to go correctly, though I can't say I've ever actually been seriously depressed. I'm the kind of person who, when something bad happens, I try to just think positives thoughts. Think about all of the good things that have happened and that might happen tomorrow. Look forward to something awesome that might be coming up. For me, normally, it's the weekend, and during the weekend, I think about how happy I'll be when I see my friends at school.

Well...really, I'm not really the kind of person to talk to about depression since I don’t think I’ve ever gotten depression, and I don't really get sad or mad all that often. I don't have much experience with dealing with it, so my above ideas might sound a bit cliche.

Hmm...not that much else to talk about today. The snow that had accumulated a few days ago has melted...again. It seems like the weather has been quite indecisive about whether or not it's still winter. It's definitally still cold though.

Oh, and, of course, during some of the coldest months, the school decides it's the perfect time to start the swimming unit in gym. At least I have gym early so I have a bit of time to dry off my hair (my super extra-absorbant hair). I feel a bit bad for the people who have gym later in the school day.

So...that's all I got for now. Stay radical people!

[Marluxia]

Hooray! Another appliance in my house is busted! Lets see, so far in order, hot water heater, 5 year old tv, refigerator, replacement tv that we got for the one that just broke, and I am betting my dishwasher will follow suit as black stuff is showing up on dishes and stuff. All in less than two months. Oh yes, my dog has continually chomped on me and my family. His teeth are pretty sharp sadly. Gotten my report card earlier, all a's and b's. Pretty good considering I understand about half of whatever is said. Except for social studies for some reason.

[Siranae]

Ah, that sounds like it sucks Lux. Well hey, at least the report card was good news.

Well, I finally got to watch an entire Miyazaki film yesterday. I've always wanted to because they just looked so awesome. And since Howl's Moving Castle was available instantly on Netflix me and my buds decided to watch it. My roommate was tempted to bootleg My Neighbor Totoro, but now she's gonna buy it instead. It's crazy but I'm getting to do so much stuff that I never did at home, even though I have less free time :P It all works out though. That night I managed to get my homework done around 11:40 (Which is good. Due to the time my classes start and the workload I have, my sleeping pattern has sort of been shifted two hours ahead. Still around the same amount of sleep, just different time :D)

[Metalheadz]

Hi! Nice work on that report card, Marluxia!

Eh. I have a crush on one of my best friend's girlfriend right now... I met her last night and I hung out with her for a little while, got to know each other, and she's also rather gorgeous. I've been thinking all night about how lucky my friend was to have her. But hey, don't worry people. I'm not the kind of jerk who would flirt with anybody's relationships. Though I do have to admit I'm quite the jealous fellow...

Peace out!

[Josiah]

Hi! Yesterday was pretty lousy (see the rant thread) but otherwise things are pretty normal. If I can get my online store working tonight, my mood should improve significantly. If not, Sunday probably won't be so great either...

[Saber Knight]

Hey.

So, the other day, a good friend pulled me aside to talk to me. We used to be best friends from like Kindergarten-3rd grade, and since we've still been good friends. Wondering what this was about, I followed him, and he told me that I was a very good friend of his and therefore he felt safe in telling me that he was gay. I had kind of suspected it, but I was ridiculously proud of him for actually coming out to me. And it felt really nice that he trusted me so much. We hugged, then neither of us knew what to do next because we're both jokesters and don't know how to react properly to serious moments, so we laughed and that was pretty much it!

No wonder he can pull off wearing a fedora.

On another note, yesterday I watched Howl's Moving Castle. Ironically enough, I'm the one who's been meaning to watch it, but my mom, having never heard of it, saw it on Netfix and thought it looked fun. She then texted me (from two rooms over... sigh) and was like "Hey have you heard of Howl's Moving Castle? We're watching it." So then we watched it and it was good! And I ate some bacon!

Yum!

[Josiah]

Hi! Howl's Moving Castle is my favorite Miyazaki movie. And you guys shouldn't stop there. Every Miyazaki movie is excellent as is nearly every Studio Ghibli movie (I wasn't overly fond of Pom Poko or Tales from Earthsea, but the rest are awesome).

A couple minor annoyances aside, I got my online store working! Car Washer will go up for sale tomorrow! I'll have a full announcement on PV but I recommend checking Car Washer's thread here on the forums before you buy it, I've got a little something for you guys that I'm be posting around the same time the PV update is uploaded...

[PoisonWing14]

Moi,

I saw Howl's Moving Castle a couple of months ago in Anime Club. I have to say it was awesome. Everyone else in the club liked it as well. We made much hilarious commentary and both I and Devin, one of my friends from the club, said that our favorite character was the scarecrow-guy on the magical pole thing (I cannot remember his name though...).

Actually, right now in my Anime Club, we're watching a...uhh...strange anime. Yet again, my memory is terrible, so I cannot remember it's name. I think the name might have started with an 'N' and it meant something along the lines of "ordinary life". The only way I can describe it is that it's a bit like Lucky Star, but quite a bit more...random...to say the least. Everyone loves it though, so we're all cool with it.

Annnd...that's all I got. Stay radical people!

[Silver]

Poison, you're watching Nichijou. Yeah, Colly and I followed that from the beginning. This scene is the best scene. Discuss.

[Saber Knight]

Hey.

Poison, you're watching Nichijou. Yeah, Colly and I followed that from the beginning. This scene is the best scene. Discuss.

So. Much. Love. For that series. I'd have to disagree and say this really brilliant but short moment and this longer moment are my favourites. Then again, I stopped following it about three months ago because I got distracted by something shiny... should get back to that.

Aaaanywho, next in line for our Miyazaki movie binge is Spirited Away... I'm excited. Oh, and my DI team has also decided we're all going to sit down and watch Kiki's Delivery Service 'cos like half the team has seen it already and I saw the preview so many times as a kid (it was one of the previews on my Pokemon The 1st Movie VHS!) and I feel obligated to see it. And it's Miyazaki.